Writing is fun but frustrating.

It's a pain to be a writer that sucks at spelling and has a short attention span. So often I find my writing going from good to meh to good again in a matter of paragraphs. Keeping my writing consistent is hard enough without having to go back and spell check my writing with google because OpenOffice.Org's spell checker can't understand some of my spelling mistakes.

When I do go back to spell check I start reading what I wrote and end up rewriting it making sections that then invalidate later parts of my stories that then themselves need rewriting. I've been writing the same stories for years now and haven't yet finished a single one.

I do know the stories start middle and end, but putting it all of it to text on a page is a bitch. How do I link up years of in universe time with charters from around the world? How do I make character interactions believable? How the hell am I writing such a complexes set of stories when I flunked out of or simply quit freshmen Lit in high school twice and had to take it in summer school to make up?

I say I flunked out, but really what happened was I didn't focus first semester and spent more time drawing up-scaled free hand pencil versions of Yu-Gi-Oh cards for my friend. Then second semester I dropped the class for reasons. First off I hated the teacher after she gave my writing a D. I wrote a short story about a Battle Mech with a prototype A.I. that had been left as a sentry unit guarding an abandoned Star Liege R & D Facility for centuries. When I told her about the source material I based my story on she said I had to make my own story up not copy someone else.

The second reason I quit was the results of the Vocabulary Placement Test we all took. I was one of two kids in my year to qualify at the highest level. The teacher didn't think I'd passed with such a high score for real and made me take a second test before she would issue me a book. I told my parents and they filed a complaint. After that it was a month before they gave me the okay to drop the class.

Well that's the past, but fuck if I did need help with my spelling all the words I knew and know. I've developed my vocabulary phonetically and don't know how to spell much of it for that reason. Sounding words out only helps to a certain extent. I've tried things like Dragon Naturally Speaking, but there's a real disconnect when I try and speak as apposed to when I type.

When I think I can hear what my characters are thinking ans saying in my mind as if it was that charter. When I speak I'm unable to replicate my internal monologue with such detail as it's me doing the thinking and speaking not the character in my head. If that makes sense to anyone then good.

All of what I've typed here has come from my mind as fast if not faster then I can say it out lowed and far more fluidly. I'm no orator, I don't have a grate voice and I don't read out lowed nearly as fast as I can silently.

Well if you've read this far then thanks, I'm venting/ranting in type form.